Im just going to put this as clearly as possible.
I may not be here much longer.
I am going through a severe crisis.
This place will always here here for you.
But I don't think I will be.
Not anymore.
It's become blindingly clear that no matter how I try to move forward, I will never be good enough and my past will never stop reaching up to hurt me deeply. There is no moving on. There is no putting the past to rest.
And I don't think there ever will be.
And I just can't be here anymore.
Here where aspects of me crack and fracture the minds of others.
Here where it's one thing after another.
Here where I'm so damn afraid to speak from the past that's constantly eating away at me and resurfacing despite my best efforts.
Here where there are so many I care about yet can't even talk to when I'm in need.
Here...where I will be constantly judged for my failures and flaws and never get beyond them.
I will complete features and owed art/trades/gifts through the rest of this week and weekend. A few pictures may take me slightly longer and those will be done. I will try to find good people to take over my groups here. If I cannot find anyone I will remove those groups once all I need to update and finish has been done. If you think you could dedicatedly take over one of the groups, let me know.
I'd say I'm sorry, but like most things about me; that'll never be enough either.
If you want to stay in contact, NOTE ME.